I HATE...

my blog, i look at it and it makes me frustrated looking through past blogs, it makes me unmotivated to post here anymore. I don't show personality in my words and work, i struggle to find things to make, they end up not being my own, i would rather copy things or in more polite terms "borrow" ideas from other artists' work - though i know this is a normal thing in that art world but from this i hide who i really am because i feel unaccomplished with my life, like i haven't done anything just living life. I am not original and it makes me want to burn my paintings because i look at them with disgust knowing that it doesn't reflect who i am like i want it too, i trick myself into thinking, painting just has to look nice and that is it. but i know there is more to that.

i have to get out of these series of doubts i have in myself.

i am uncomfortable in calling and hearing people call myself an artist at this point in time because i have not found who i am, i haven't answered all these questions i have in my head that would confirm that i am worthy of calling myself an "artist". i know not all questions in life is possible of answering. but i need to find the 'artist" that i know is hiding in me.

RED Durer

red print

Durer

This is one of my first Printmaking projects a collaboration piece with the whole printmaking class, which we only had a week to do! I know just a week and I'm glad I finished it and in four days too. I'm not bragging or anything, but I'm pretty damn proud of it. The image we had to carve out is is A4 sized and the image is from a section from an existing xylograph image by Painter, Drawer, Engraver and Mathematician Albrecht Durer. This whole Image itself is called "Escape To Egypt".

My first proper lino block every, I mean I did a little bit of lino block carving in high school but it was way simple and very crap also it was a long time ago. And I can safely say I've come a long way from pretty much nothing.

My second printmaking projects is on it's way, nearly finished but I have to fix it up because the ink decided it didn't like part of my lino block, so most of my prints have had ugly patches of no ink. Do not fear I know how to fix it and when it's fixed I will be able to stop stressing out about it.

I don't even want to talk about what's been happening with my painting because it has really been not going anywhere unfortunately. I wish I could say I'm very happy about my work in painting like I am with printmaking but I seem to have struck an uninspiring area for it, hopefully I will get out of it soon because I need as much inspiration in my final works that has been slowly coming along.

I guess that's all... a very long post, until next time this is me signing off.

Arrows

So I found an off cut of linoleum and it was too small to do any proper projects with and it was a bit too big to throw away and being me I hate throwing away anything. So what I did was draw then carved out using lino tools this arrow design on it. I printed this design onto some card and it seems to be making pretty neat bookmarks. I seem to have a thing for drawing in arrows into my drawings I don't know why it's just something I've been doing recently.

I Love Lino Block Printing

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so being unsatisfied with the last drawing, I took it on to making another one, this time more detail and more effort was put into it....again no meaning just time that's involved in this....I guess one can appreciate it that way?

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I actually made this a while ago; I just never posted it, which is weird because I thought I did. Notice that I made it my background too, cool. I don’t know if I like this or not, it was just sometime I did to fill my boredom. Most of what I create doesn’t have some grand meaning in it let alone any meaning, like it should. Considering I go to art school and is told to describe what I had made in my classes, every time I find it hard to do so. I just do it because I want to; this is what I want to do, create something on a surface that is in my mind, does it have to mean something? If it doesn’t does it mean it’s not art?

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to my Lovely Bestfriend!!!!!!!!

another year older I hope you don't feel too old today :D

Unmotivated

It seems like a long time since I updated this thing. Recently I have been unmotivated by what life brings me each day, unable or rather not wanting to make anything but sit and complain about how I have no motivation to create anything therefore my excuse is justified. Though it is easier to sit around and say I have no motivation to create anything, this is only because the effort into getting up and do something, even if it is just anything takes a hundred times more power within myself to have effort into creating something I like. Usually when I know I am about to make something I do not like (which is nearly all the time) I don't bother whether or not the outcome, it has not been created. I have not yet learn to be confident within my work which makes it hard for me to work at all. Finding ideas and inspiration from other artists only draws me in a circle of the question "is my work ever gone to get better?" this question I sometimes doubt, can it be possible to do something in reality if it started as a dream?

"abstract landscape, 2009. 21.7 x 29.8"

This is a painting I did about a month ago for one of my painting classes. I quite like it actually, the contrast between the background and the lines just seem right. It was one of those paintings that was force, as awful as it sounds, I was running out of ideas not knowing what to paint i just painted on with whatever colour I still had left on my palette. Remembering a painting I had saw early in an art magazine I am subscribed to I followed the techniques of what I thought the painting used. Which produced the ending result of this abstract/landscape painting.

Ok so I completely neglected to post anything in April and May...I have no excuses just that I have been lazy to and uni has been catching up to me...final assessments in a week and a day away, I'm nervous I hope I do well. After final assessments has finished I can finally relax a little bit. Mid year break here I come. So until then, see you later.

updating soon promise....